You will never be the same.

"Goodbye to the old days, your wonder bids you farewell. Innocence has yet to return and we fear that it may never resurface. They've all managed to push it underneath the soil, and you'll have to dig for years. You're being pushed around as they gang around in numbers too high, bring your expectations to lows. Set nothing for nothing, expect nothing, be nothing. You're not quite a clean slate, you're time to be someone is too late. You'll never be able to love again."